It has been a while...

I cannot believe that it has been over 2 months since I last updated my web page. What the fuck am I thinking??? Any ways I thought I should give an update on my life. Since I last updated I have completed about 75% of the ParadigM DvD “Live in Lafayette, IL 10-04-03” by 86 productions. ParadigM is a band that features Chuck Harker, Andrew Hughes (for now), Mike Smith, & Tom Walenfeldt. I filled in on the vocals since someone bailed on them. The show went pretty good besides the fact I barely knew the lyrics for the songs. I will have pics up soon so everyone can check it out.

I have been working at another theater company in Pekin, IL. I really like the fact everything is not put upon my shoulders. Wow, I really like the job. Everyone there is nice and my boss is really kewl. I started skating again. Someone said something about trying out for a pro team. I know I am not that good, but then I thought that trying out for a pro team is something I tried.

I was told recently, “You are lucky. I have trouble being able to talk to people. For some reason, you never have had a problem like that. I really hate you for that… I feel now the reason you do not have problems like that and the reason everyone likes is you have charisma.” The funny thing is that it is from a friend that I have not talked to or seen in 4+ years. Do I have charisma? I guess I do. What the fuck does that word mean?

Charisma means:

A personal attractiveness that enables you to influence others

A rare personal quality attributed to leaders who arouse fervent popular  devotion and enthusiasm.

Personal magnetism or charm: a television news program famed for the charisma of its anchors.

An extraordinary power, such as the ability to perform miracles, granted  by the Holy Spirit.

Do I have those powers? I doubt it. I hope that I keep most people happy, but do I really have charisma?

I have finally come to terms with something that happened 5.5 years ago. I will be taking the next steps really soon. This time it is not a joke. I really love her. I will ask her parents again because I asked so long ago. I really miss seeing her everyday. Soon that will not be a problem. I LOVE YOU! You know who you are ;-)

I just got a DVR (Digital Video Recorder). Let me tell you that it is the coolest thing ever. I can pause live TV and more. I love it. Super Bowl at my crib!!!